mirotic puzzle

“the sky’s so beautiful..so full of stars..!”

“..do you wanna know why?”

“..because you are here…”

it was the scene that happened on the car..last year,js prom..

i was with cedy.. the most important person in my life…that time..

now,things had chaged a bit..I know.

I parted from him since the issue about him and cesiah together.since then,I decide to go far from him and separeate myself..and as I search for myself,I found out another person whom I thought would help me surpress the sadness I felt about the partness..

and now,I found out my boyfriend,kean..

kean wasn’t born in the place I was..he lived in the province as a lonely emo boy he was when we met..

I met him,as I was eventually walking straight without looking in the way I was passing…because of what he wore,I didn’t noticed he was with angel’s boyfriend.nor notice his presence.I bumped into him and wondered how and what the hell I would bump a shadow..when I looked up,I saw a face of a man,whom I think would really look good if seen on the light..he was so silent and hollow..I could nearly feel the same sadness I felt when me and tim fought.I chatted with him and asked him about how would it feel like to be an emo because I wasn’t one..

the next day,we started texting each other and when the night came,we danced in the pale moonlight and the stars watching us…I could merely hear my heart pound as hard as like something was hitting it so hard.I waited him speak and he did!I heard mysterious voice..asking,why would I let just everyone dance with me?I answered simply just because I wanted to..after the dance,we decided to go home.I never told him I was leaving but still,he asked me and insisted to take me home..but on his way,blocked out another so stubborn guy who also would want to take me home.and so they both asked me..”are you coming with me?”

I never chose to go with kean..it was the other guy who let go of me.and I think,it was destiny who chose for me.

the next night,he went into my house for a visit.then the next day,he was surprised that I’d be leaving back to manila..and so he texted me.”I wanna come with you.”For the heck of I don’t know why,he told me that he really liked me..and it cleared out the rest of me,asking why he didn’t danced with anyone but me.he courted me,and as time pass,I fell for him…I forgot about cedy that time..

but,it came back a little when the graduation ball came..

I was hiding from the public eye as the dancefloor opens for the night dance..I even was texting kean telling him to sleep early.

“..Can I have this dance?”

“..uh..I was busy and I was err…”

“…”

cedy held my hand and we danced that night..

“when would this happen again?I think it would be the last.”

I told him as I removed my sight away from him..

“it would..on alyssa’s birthday.”

he answered as he held my hand tighter and as we moved on the floor,going at the back..everyone was just looking at us..wondering why we were togther..again.

“Let’s go back.”

“no..let’s finish the song..”

we finished the song,and he took me back on the table,holding my hands 10mins. long…then,I went to his sister,alyssa..and we kept asking what was that..

on what I saw,I was stuck between the two..yeah,I loved cedy while ago.but now,things had changed.I loved kean.and if I were to choose,I really don’t even know..I would be graduating soon,and the more it comes near,it comes more fearing to me..

If cedy and I was destined,then he will come back to me the way he did when I lost him back then when we were on gradeschool..he would run back,and would wave his hands,saying he’s not lost..no matter what would interfere us..

now,it’s only god knows if we will or will not be for each other,again..

“..come on,It’s finished.”

“no,it won’t be..it won’t..I wouldn’t want to let you go..”

“..it has happened and we are done..we can’t just go back.we have our own lives..”

“then,let everything be..if we really are destined,we shall come back together once again without knowing we were for each other.”

“..should I say,goodbye?”

“no.never…see you,next time..”

and now,it’s different from past to present..subete wo god knows..

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