“wish I was just sitting at a chair.smelling like hay,be with him on his arms rather than walking in the city,getting everything but not him.”
and and now,days are passing.tommorow,robot and I are turning 6 months old(yeiiy^_^).days pass so fast.I didn’t even see what’s with who,when’s where at…and still,I haven’t got a gift for robot on his birthday on july 28.(BTW,even if I have a gift,I wouldn’t be able to send it either) I didn’t even notice people around me.I was sooo busy on the different subjects,exams,and so on of my hectic and “wild” schedule(my schedule is wild.I mean it..!)I really missed robot.but the only thing for me now is to finish what I have started for the while.so I can take the vacation.I just thought,on those many things happening,when it just pass,time pass as well and they would just,”POP!”disappear.it’s done.and yeah,if I haven’t spoken about this,I think Mark is going too far.(mark is one BX-friend).I think we should put actions upon him.
” I would love to kiss you on the cheeks for you to own me.. I would better kiss you on the lips and it means,I owned you.”
yesterday,we were talking about kisses.I remember when I was a bit younger(I haven’t met robot yet^^)I was scared of kisses.I don’t know why.but whenever I got a boyfriend that time,I would just slap them if they ever kiss me on the cheeks.but then,I was surprised one time,as cedy and I was walking way home.he kissed me on the cheek.I was feeling so nervous after then.and then,the kiss from robot came.It was more than nervous.Just this afternoon,I met joushie on the way to school with his school friends.I hid,expecting he wouldn’t notice “that girl he used to corner” on uniform.but then,he still did.”I missed you.”he said.I smiled and siad,”yeah,me too.”we were on the flock of his schoolmates.”Can I ask something?”he asked.”sure,what’s it?make sure it’s easy coz I’ll be late for school” I said.”Can I have a kiss..?”he asked.he embraced me.”Can I..? I really missed you..”he said.no signals,I kissed him on the cheek.and he did the same.it was then,I remembered.”why did I..?”
I was transforming into a worst one.but I think,i wouldn’t let it be.
it happened before.i just got used to it.plus,he was just too sweet.
it’s just the cheek.
kiss is just a kiss.it wouldn’t affect everything.
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